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Dear Ones,

I have a quick little anecdote to share about why I chose tomorrow’s topic of Tending to Our Younger Selves as the topic for our first gathering…

I know it doesn’t sound sexy, and even at the mention of it, some of you might want to run the other away—I know because that’s my tendency too.

But the truth is, most of us avoid re-parenting work, even though it is essential, because our inner child doesn’t just live in our memories, she lives in our muscle tension. Our people-pleasing. Our startle-response. In our looping mind-reigning mantras—you know, those ones that wake up at 3AM every night?

But back to the anecdote.

As a coach and mentor for years now, most of my work has been one on one. In the one on one space I am very comfortable. Im a Projector in Human Design, and that is one of my gifts—I can be acutely attuned to what the individual in front of me is needing or resisting in that moment and because of this, I’m usually able to help them move into a process of integration quite easily and naturally.

But when it comes to facilitating a group—well, that’s a new dynamic for me. And to be honest, it kind of freaks me out.

I think because I read and feel energy so much, sometimes I fear I will get overwhelmed or worse, held hostage by, an overpowering energy or emotion. This has happened in various groups I’ve been a part of over the years—especially intense healing groups where the subject material was tricky—and if the facilitator wasn’t able to hold the space well, I could feel it hit me like a tsunami. I very quickly learned that group energy must be expertly held for it to not feel disruptive to the process of each individual within the greater whole.

In fact, when I was envisioning the blueprint for The Lilith Club, I knew that I was not going to keep shying away from holding this type of potent collective healing space, and that I would no longer allow the part of me who feared group facilitation run the show.

But the problem was, even though I could feel the resistance in my body as tension, I didn’t exactly know who inside me was running the show.

So today, when I sat down to my own inner exploration of gently encountering what was currently alive inside of my emotional and somatic experience, I was met with…

Yes, you guessed it—My younger self.

The exchange I had with her was quite moving, and it turned out that it was not my adult self who was carrying that weight of fear and dread, but my 7 year old self, because she was scared that she wouldn’t be able to hold the energy of a group. All she wanted to do was jump rope, play hop scotch and draw with jumbo pastel-colored chalk on the pavement with me!

Caressing her silken cheek with my fingertips, I assured her, Oh Darling, you never were meant to hold that much energy!

She flashed a toothless smile at me and we got to work giving her what she wanted instead.

As I jumped, hopped, skipped and colored boldly out of the lines with Little Kate, I could feel the tension I had been holding, bounce off of me like little beads of sweat, each one being devoured by the loving and thirsty mouth of the earth.

I am happy to report that I am now sitting here typing this, grinning ear to ear, feeling the pure excitement to gather with all of you who plan to attend the Underworld Journey tomorrow, June 12th at 1PM EDT (New York). Click here to adjust for your time zone.

And the best part?

My younger self is giddy and giggling with delight at the idea of getting to dance, play and twirl with all of your sweet younger selves too!!!

If you would like to join us tomorrow, all you have to do is upgrade and become a paid member at any tier, which supports my work as a writer and facilitator/somatic healer, and allows me to come up with more ways for us to alchemize our tears + fears into gold, together.